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夜晴

在我小学六年级那年，

那年，

我十二岁。

为我的十三岁放弃了独中，

选择了私人学校。

为我的十三岁放弃了中文，

选择了外语。

十二岁的我，其实想法很简单，

只是打从心底地很抗拒比繁重更繁重的功课。

在马来西亚，

华校一直都是最传统的教学系统，

功课繁重的程度，

在我六年级的时候，已经能够达到十份以上的作业，

我指的是，每一天。

所以十二岁的那一年，

我放弃了中文，

选择了外语。

而人每每直到放弃了，才晓得珍惜，

这总是最让人痛恨不已却屡试不爽的道理。

现在我不能说有多么地后悔，毕竟没有那时的选择，

或许没有今天的我。

但十年，已经快要磨光了我的笔对中文的记忆，

有好多字，我认得却写不出来。

而六年，只足够给了我一块为了进步准备的基石，

有好多字，我能够明白却读不出来。

这就占据了我一生中，

最深的遗憾之一。

。。。

可是，

在我无比珍惜中文的时候，

有部分所谓的华人，

却看不起本应该最是属于他们的语言。

或许接受过传统教育的我，

很传统。

我不晓得还有多少人，

认清自己的血液源自于那中华大陆，

不晓得在那一部分看不起中文的人里头，

有多少看见了自己正在羞辱着自己。

。。。

我只晓得我是华人，

很自豪的华人，

哪怕一天，中华大陆被认为是最落后的地方，

哪怕华人被认为是最羞耻的种族，

我还是华人，很自豪的华人。

所以请别称呼我为黄种人，或亚洲人，

如果你坚持称呼我为马来西亚人的时候，

请你稍微更正一下，称我为马来西亚华人。


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clear night.

when the year i was standard 6,

i was 12 years old that year.

i gave up chinese secondary school for my 13,

and chose private school.

i gave up chinese for my 13,

and chose a second language.

the 12 years old me, has a very simple thinking at that time,

i just hate it so much for the homeworks which are heavier than the word, heavy.

in malaysia,

chinese school is always the most traditional education system,

u might want to know how heavy the homework can be,

when i was standard 6, the homeworks can go up to more than 10,

i mean, everyday.

so, when i was 12 years old,

i gave up chinese,

and i took a second language.

very often, when people gave up something, they started to appreciate it,

this is very annoying but it is something happen always.

now i cant say that how much i regret about it, because without the decision that day,

i might not be understanding this today.

but 10 years, had already almost finish erasing my pen's memory of writing chinese,

so many words, i can recognize but i cant write it out with my pen.

and 6 years, can only give me a base which has space to improve,

so many words, i can understand but i cant read it out.

this had taken one of the biggest lost,

in my life.

...

but,

when i think chinese is so precious to me,

there are some so-called chinese,

they looked down on the language which is actually suppose to own by them so much.

may be i had traditional educated before,

thats why i am so traditional.

i dont know how many people out there,

realize their blood is origin from the mainland of chinese,

i dont know how many people from those who looked down on chinese,

realize that they are making shame of themselves.

...

what i only know that is i am a chinese,

a very proud chinese,

doesnt matter even if one day, the mainland being see as the land of uncivilized,

even if chinese being see as the race of shame,

i am still a chinese, a very proud chinese.

so please dont call me a yellow or an asian,

if u insist to call me a malaysian,

please at least correct a little, call me as a malaysian chinese.