LATE AND BABIES ` 迟到与小瓜们

午晴

手里提着钥匙，背着笔记本。

望了望那阴沉沉的天空，

再望了望手表，深吸了口气。

“今天早出门，就算不早到也不会迟到吧？” 乌鸦是这样想的。

。。。

大约一个小时后，

乌鸦坐在车上看着外面的轰隆大雨，一直昏昏欲睡，

心里也早已经把这个想法给抛到九天之外去了。

。。。

两个小时过去了，

乌鸦的车子终于到达了中心，

心里的那个郁闷，实在难以表达出来。

“又迟到了，贼老天。”

下车时，乌鸦心里不停地咒骂着。

车子啊，我说，请你长出一对翅膀吧！

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除了一早塞车的不快之外，

其实今天还能算是个好天的。

看着 Rachel 这个粘人的小淘气，

抓着乌鸦的裤子，然后踏在乌鸦的脚上，玩得不亦乐乎。

我也玩心一起，就把小淘气踏着的脚稍微提起来，

不停地重复，

小淘气就玩得不停地咯咯声笑，呵呵。

今天偶然发现 Jayden 开始学着站起来了，

噢～很快就会学走了吧。

咱们心里就喜愁参半了，

喜的当然是他学走了，愁的也是因为他学走了，

天哪，快要多个到处跑的小瓜啦！

Rachel 这不知死活的小家伙，还大胆地如往常那般欺负 Jayden，

乌鸦摇了摇头想，

“妳呀，都没看 Jayden 长得满身横肉吗？”

“待他能走动的时候，就是他狠狠报复妳的时候了！”

想到这里，乌鸦不禁打了个冷颤。


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clear noon.

holding my car key, with my laptop at my side.

took a look at the dark sky,

then look at my watch, a deep breath.

"today came out earlier, even im not reaching earlier also wont become late ba?" i thought so.

...

about an hour later,

i was sitting in the car watching the heavy rain outside, sleepily,

for the previous thought, i had already given up in my heart sometimes ago.

...

after two hours,

my car finally reached the centre,

the frustration in my heart, seriously hard to express it out.

"late again, god damn it."

coming down from the car, i was cursing in my heart.

my car ah, i said, please grow urself a pair of wings ba!

-

other than the unhappy jam in the morning,

today actually still consider as a good day.

looking at Rachel, this little naughty,

holding my pants and stepping on my feet, having so much fun.

then me too being a bit playful, so i slightly lifting up the feet she is stepping,

then repeating it,

that little naughty play until giggling non-stop, lolz.

today also i found Jayden is starting to stand,

aww~ very soon he will be able to walk ba.

we have mix feeling about this,

happy for him because he can walk, worry also because he can walk,

gosh, there will be another baby running around lah!

Rachel this little fella still didnt know how dead is she when she is still bullying Jayden like usual,

i shook my head and thinking,

"u ah, cant u see how muscular Jayden is?"

"when he can walk, that will be the time he starts his revenge on u lah!"

suddenly, i shivered.

SMILEY FACE ` 笑脸

夜晴

看着这三张卡片，有点儿哭笑不得的感觉。

哦，忘了说，还附带着三个信封，

呵呵。

是三张笑脸。

这就是花了乌鸦和 Faye 一人五块的东西。

今天一起在 Summit 的麦当劳里买的，

是个戴着眼镜斯斯文文的小伙子，

手里拿着个文件夹，

不停口地介绍和说着他售卖这小袋子（卡片都在小袋子里）的目的。

乌鸦就一边咬着面包，一边看着那快速翻过的资料，（反正他说太快，听不了）

但特别关注的其实是他身为义工的身份证明。

“应该是真的吧？” 我想。

望了望 Faye，

“怎么样？要不要买个？” 我问。

“要不我们一起买一个吧？” Faye 说，呵呵，正合我意。（钱带得不多）

其实这都是捐给痉挛儿童的，

乌鸦不介意出这么一点儿绵力，

因为我想如果每个人都觉得其他人会捐，而自己就不用费心的话，

那怎么能足够帮助那些不幸的人呢？

而至于他们是否真的用这些钱来帮助别人，

那真的不晓得了，

但有些时候，能帮的就别犹豫太多吧。


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clear night.

looking at the 3 cards, feeling a bit funny,

oh, forgot there are also 3 envelopes,

heh.

it's 3 smiley faces.

these are what spent me and Faye 5 dollars each person.

we bought it together at Summit's Mcd,

it was a young man with a spectacle,

with a folder on his hand,

non-stop introducing and talking about why is he selling this little plastic bag (cards are inside).

i was looking at the quick flipping folder while eating my burger, (he speaks too fast, i cant even listen)

but what i really concern about is his social worker's identity.

"should be real i guess?" i think.

looked at Faye,

"how? buy one?" i asked.

"what about we buy one together?" Faye said, heh, thats what i thought too. (didnt bring much money with me)

actually all these are donating to the children with Spasticity,

i dont really mind giving a little help,

because i think if everyone thinks the others will do it so they dont need to help,

then how is it going to be enough to help those unfortunate people?

i too dont know if they really use these money to help the others,

seriously we never know,

but sometimes, if we can help then dont need to reconsider too much ba.

QUIET ` 宁静

午晴

不晓得为啥每个星期日，总有股冲动想要出去，

潜意识里，

也许是想补偿以前常呆在家的那段时间，

也或许是在担心寂寞一发不可收拾吧？

习惯性地抬头望了望窗外，

层层云朵之后，出现的一片蔚蓝，

光亮的阳光从窗外探了进来，

在地上留下了一道光与暗的倒影。

阵阵微风正轻轻地拨弄着窗帘，

而摆动着的窗帘与窗外静止的景色，竟相映成一副宁静的画。

耳边听着邓丽君的【你怎么说】，

心里感觉无比写意。

至于没能出去，就算了吧，呵。


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clear noon.

dont know why every sunday, i will have this urge to go out,

in subconscious mind,

may be i just wanted to pay back for those times i always stay home last time,

or may be im afraid the loneliness becoming uncontrollable ba?

as a habit, i looked outside my window,

after all the clouds, a wide blue sky came into my eyes,

bright sunlight entering my room through the window,

leaving a reflection of light and shadow.

breeze is gently fiddling the curtain,

the waving curtain with the still scene outside the window, they've became a peaceful picture.

listening to Teresa Teng's 【Ni Zen Me Shuo】,

feeling so relax,

for being unable to go out, also nevermind ba, heh.

RANDOM ` 随意

早阴

昨晚半夜三点多才睡，

六点多，乌鸦睁开了眼睛，望了望那显得稍微阴暗的窗外。

自忖，怎么在这个时候醒了？

闭上眼睛，满脑子开始出现好多奇怪的念头，

七点多，辗转难眠，还是起床吧。

洗了脸后，

懒洋洋地坐在电脑前，看着自己昨晚的成果，

感觉还挺满意的，

如果有常看乌鸦的部落格，就一定能发现什么不一样。

-

这几天乌鸦确实过得比较轻松，

也似乎不再胡乱地钻牛角尖了。

可是，

这并不代表，我很快乐。

乌鸦发现在这几天里，

找不到让我快乐的理由，找不到让我快乐的因素。

不是的，

乌鸦我也不是感觉悲伤。

只是，心里那一段突兀的空白，

实在难以掩盖。

我正告诉别人，别因为寂寞而恋爱。

告诉自己，别因为寂寞而恋爱。

乌鸦不会因为寂寞而恋爱，

而同时，

也不会理智地恋爱。

但乌鸦想要个温暖的怀抱，

给我少许力量，

背起妳我一辈子的担待。


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cloudy day.

last night i slept at 3 plus in the midnight,

6 plus, i opened my eyes, looked at the window which seems a little dark outside.

wondering, why am i waking up at this time?

closed my eyes, many weird thinkings are coming into my mind,

7 plus, i guess i just cant sleep, wake up then.

washed my face,

sat in front of my pc lazily, looking at what i produced last night,

feeling kinda satisfy,

if anyone often visits my blog will know what is the difference.

-

these few days i was quite relax, really,

and seems that i no longer putting myself into a dead end again.

but,

it doesnt mean that, im very happy.

i found myself in these few days,

i cant find any reasons to be happy, cant find any factors to be happy.

no,

i am not feeling sad either.

but, there's this unnatural blank in my heart,

really unable to cover from myself.

i was telling people, do not fall in love because of loneliness.

telling myself, do not fall in love because of loneliness.

i will not love because of loneliness,

and at the same time,

i dont love logically.

but i want a warm and tight hug,

give me a little strength,

picking up this life long responsibility of u and me.

NOW THEN I KNOW ` 原来

夜晴

一样的太阳，

一样的风，

一样的云，

还有那片一样的天空。

几乎每天都是一样，

地球依然保持旋转。

小孩在长大，青春在流逝。

有些事情其实一直都在发生，

人们却察觉不到。

有些事情其实一直都存在，

人们却发现不了。

原来，

原来我其实。。。

原来你其实。。。

原来和我想的原来都不一样，

原来那么多原来我都忽略了，不曾想像。


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clear night.

the same sun,

the same wind,

the same cloud,

and the same sky on our top.

almost, everyday is the same,

the earth is still spinning.

the kids are growing, time is passing.

sometimes things are actually happening,

but people just couldnt realize.

sometimes things are actually existed,

but people just couldnt find.

now then i know,

now then i know im actually...

now then i know ur actually...

now then i know it's different from what i know,

now then i know so many things i've neglected, but i didnt realize.

MENTALLY TIRED ` 心累

夜晴

心里很疲累。

抱着枕头，只想好好沉睡。


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clear night.

mentally tired.

hugging my pillow, just wanted to fall asleep deeply.

BLACK AND WHITE WORLD ` 黑白世界

午晴

算算日子，乌鸦竟然有好几天没写部落格了。

这些天好累，是精神上的疲累，

别问为什么。

那是因为乌鸦也不晓得为什么，

所以稍微偷懒。

呵呵。

其实这些天也不是没什么可写的，

例如星期天乌鸦和朋友的聚会，那可是三十多人的聚会，

有认识的，也有不认识的，反正就是好多好多人。

而星期一，原本是没什么的，

可就是抱着奥利维尔这位大老板让他睡觉的时候，被撒了一身尿。

那时候，乌鸦还发傻，怎么大老板身体那么热呢。。。

呜呜，

乌鸦当真是命运坎坷啊～

这小子活得真舒爽，睡觉吃饭有人服侍，连撒尿都有我帮他接着。唉～

-

对了，

有没有发现乌鸦部落格的崭新布条（BANNER）？

这是乌鸦亲手绘画的，漂亮吧？！

哇哈哈哈！

乌鸦知道肯定很漂亮，就知道！好！不必再说了，乌鸦知道了！

可是 Ying 还是说比较喜欢之前的那个，

因为她感觉这个很寂寞。

呃，但这就是乌鸦心里的黑白世界啊～


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clear noon.

hmm, check the date, i also hadnt write my blog for few days already.

these days im tired, mentally tired,

dont ask me why.

thats because i dont know why too,

so im being lazy a bit.

heh.

actually these days i should have things to write,

for example, sunday i went for a gathering, it was a gathering of 30 plus people,

there are people that i know, or i dont know, whatever... but still a lot of people.

for monday, suppose to be nothing much,

but when it happens to carry Oliver, the BIG BOSS to sleep, he peed on my shirt.

that time i was still so blur, wondering why BIG BOSS's body so hot...

sob,

my life really a misery~

this little fella live until so comfortable, sleep and eat also people serving,

even pee also im receiving for him. sigh~

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oh yeah,

anyone else realize my new blog banner?

i drew it by myself, nice right?!

wahahahaha!

i knew it must be very nice, knew it! alright! dont need to say anymore, i knew already!

but then Ying still likes the previous one more,

because she said that this banner seems lonely to her.

erh, but this is my black and white world in my heart lah~