RANDOM ` 随意

早阴

昨晚半夜三点多才睡，

六点多，乌鸦睁开了眼睛，望了望那显得稍微阴暗的窗外。

自忖，怎么在这个时候醒了？

闭上眼睛，满脑子开始出现好多奇怪的念头，

七点多，辗转难眠，还是起床吧。

洗了脸后，

懒洋洋地坐在电脑前，看着自己昨晚的成果，

感觉还挺满意的，

如果有常看乌鸦的部落格，就一定能发现什么不一样。

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这几天乌鸦确实过得比较轻松，

也似乎不再胡乱地钻牛角尖了。

可是，

这并不代表，我很快乐。

乌鸦发现在这几天里，

找不到让我快乐的理由，找不到让我快乐的因素。

不是的，

乌鸦我也不是感觉悲伤。

只是，心里那一段突兀的空白，

实在难以掩盖。

我正告诉别人，别因为寂寞而恋爱。

告诉自己，别因为寂寞而恋爱。

乌鸦不会因为寂寞而恋爱，

而同时，

也不会理智地恋爱。

但乌鸦想要个温暖的怀抱，

给我少许力量，

背起妳我一辈子的担待。


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cloudy day.

last night i slept at 3 plus in the midnight,

6 plus, i opened my eyes, looked at the window which seems a little dark outside.

wondering, why am i waking up at this time?

closed my eyes, many weird thinkings are coming into my mind,

7 plus, i guess i just cant sleep, wake up then.

washed my face,

sat in front of my pc lazily, looking at what i produced last night,

feeling kinda satisfy,

if anyone often visits my blog will know what is the difference.

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these few days i was quite relax, really,

and seems that i no longer putting myself into a dead end again.

but,

it doesnt mean that, im very happy.

i found myself in these few days,

i cant find any reasons to be happy, cant find any factors to be happy.

no,

i am not feeling sad either.

but, there's this unnatural blank in my heart,

really unable to cover from myself.

i was telling people, do not fall in love because of loneliness.

telling myself, do not fall in love because of loneliness.

i will not love because of loneliness,

and at the same time,

i dont love logically.

but i want a warm and tight hug,

give me a little strength,

picking up this life long responsibility of u and me.