《绝世歌姬 之 邓丽君》

长歌三十延万家，

人如晚霞影如画。

流水风华有时尽，

五月初夏命折花。







注：好想写点什么给邓丽君，这位前无古人，后人难及的绝世歌姬。
她的逝去一直都是好多好多人的遗憾，而当乌鸦看着她的照片时，总会自然而然地感觉一阵心酸。

唉～

MOCK TEST ` 模拟考

夜晴

昨天没去上班但去了学院，

啊，你们是不是在想：哇，乌鸦好勤劳呀！

对吧？

但其实，

乌鸦只是去临时抱抱佛脚而已。

到了课室后，望着课室里寥寥数人和一排摆得整齐的教具，

乌鸦的脑子顿时一片茫然，我说该怎么开始好啊？晕。

真有点儿走马观花的感觉，

就是随便碰碰这碰碰那儿的，在教具间徘徊，

后来我想 Raiwin 是实在受不了乌鸦一副茫然的样子吧？哈哈。

她主动来教乌鸦，当真受益不浅啊！受益不浅！

就这样一直到傍晚，乌鸦才决定收拾回家。

回家后，竟然发生了些事情让乌鸦虚惊了一场，这就略过不提吧，

大致上也是因为乌鸦的朋友借了东西没还。

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今天一早乌鸦先到中心去，虽然那样会很远，

可还是不好意思两天都连续离开的。

待到了差不多一点多，泡了个奶准备给午睡的小孩后，（笑我者乌鸦必杀之！）

乌鸦就准备启程去学院赴考了。

“祝你好运。。。”

临走前，nic 是这样跟我说的。

哎，还真感觉有点儿风萧萧兮易水寒，壮士一去不复返的意境。。。

我呸！呸！呸！

可是今天乌鸦的模拟考实在是考得很差劲儿，

整个过程乌鸦都嗫嗫嚅嚅的，好多东西都不懂而且表达不出来，唉～

四月初就正式考试了，迫在眉睫了啦，

乌鸦该怎么办啊？

对了，今晚考完了后和 Faye 吃了个月光晚餐，

嗯，是的，是月光晚餐，

黑漆漆的，吃着什么都看不着，还说够凉快，我倒！

吃完了后，

迷迷糊糊地回来了，然后迷迷糊糊地写了这篇部落文。


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--------------------------------- dont understand chinese read english, but dont laugh at my english ---------------------------------


clear night.

yesterday didnt go to work but i went to college,

ahh, u all must be thinking: wa, so hardworking ah!

right?

but actually,

im going there to do last minute practice only.

after reaching the classroom, seeing the few classmates and all the teaching materials,

i suddenly felt so blank man, i dont know how should i start with. faint.

seriously so blur lah, i was like moving around the materials only,

i think Raiwin is cannot stand of seeing me so blurry face ba? haha.

she came and taught me things and i really learned a lot! really a lot lah!

until the late evening, only i decided to go home.

after i reached my home, found something and gave me a stupid shock, but forget it,

roughly its about my friend borrow my stuff but forgotten to return.

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this morning i went to centre first, although it will be very far,

but really not good if i absent for two days continuously.

stayed there until 1pm plus,

after making the milk for the children who are going to nap, (who laugh i kill who!)

then i prepared to depart for having my exam.

"wish u good luck..."

before i go, thats what nic said.

eh, really got a bit feeling like i cannot return...

choi! pui! pui! pui!

but today my mock exam really did very badly ah,

i really cant manage to talk so well, many things i dont know and cant express it out, sigh~

early april is going to have the final exam, so close already lah,

what should i do ahhhh?

oh yeah, after the mock exam i went to have a moonlight dinner with Faye,

yeah, right, it's a moonlight dinner,

it's so dark i cant even see what am i eating, said it was cooling some more, issh!

after eating,

came home blur and then post up this blur post too.

REPOST - LIFE PARTNER ` 转载 － 终身伴侣

乌鸦第一篇全英文，可是是转载的。哈哈。

FINDING AND KEEPING A LIFE PARTNER

Golden rules for finding your life partner by Dov Heller, M.A.

When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake. Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50%, it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Miss. Right!

If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: "We're in love"; I believe this is the 1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love. Though this may sound "not politically correct", there's a profound truth here.

Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: "You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone"; You need a lot more!!!

Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.

QUESTION ..1: Do we share a common life purpose?

Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together? You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose.

Two things can happen in a marriage:
(1) You can grow together, or
(2) You can grow apart.

50% of the people out there are growing apart. To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life!

Bottom line; marry someone who wants the same thing.


QUESTION ..2: Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?

This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship.
Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust - i.e. trust that I won't get "punished" or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings. A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings. Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.


QUESTION ..3: Is he/she a mensch?

A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person.
How can you test? Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves?
A teacher of mine defines a good person as "someone who is always striving to be good and do the right". So ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic?
Usually a materialistic person is not someone whose top priority is character refinement.

There are essentially two types of people in the world:
(1) People who are dedicated to personal growth and
(2) people who are dedicated to seeking comfort.
Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal Comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.

QUESTION ..4: How does he/she treat other people?

The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure.

Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and self- absorbed?

To measure this, think about the following: How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc.. How do they treat their parents and siblings? Do they have gratitude and appreciation?

If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything; can you do nearly as much for them? You can be sure that someone, who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.


QUESTION ..5: Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?

Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to "improve"; them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it: "You can probably expect someone to change after marriage for the worse" If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them.


In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous.
The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating; to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues. Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself trouble because you didn't do your homework.

Another perspective...

There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you.

Pay attention...

Which ones lift and which ones lean?

Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?

Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill?

When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse?

Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know, or appreciate you?


The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you...the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.

An African proverb states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye"; Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.

Do you bring out the best in each other?

Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?

What do you bring to the relationship?

Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?

You can't take someone to the altar to alter them. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.

If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life"; you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.

WHAT KEEPS A RELATIONSHIP STRONG IS:

1. TRUST

2. COMMUNICATION

3. INTIMACY

4. A SENSE OF HUMOR

5. SHARING TASKS

6. SOME GETAWAY TIME WITHOUT BUSINESS OR CHILDREN

7. DAILY EXCHANGES (meal, shared activity, hug, call, touch, notes, etc.)

8. SHARING COMMON GOALS AND INTERESTS

9. GIVING EACH OTHER SPACE TO GROW WITHOUT FEELING INSECURE

10. GIVING EACH OTHER A SENSE OF BELONGING AND ASSURANCES OF COMMITMENT

If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment withdrawal, abuse, neglect, and dishonesty; and pain will replace.


Wish you all a blessed day.

SELF INTRO ` 自我介绍

一直想说，想要写个自我介绍。

好久好久以前，在同学间会流行着这么一个习惯，或者爱好。

同学们互相在对方的小册子上写着各自的自我介绍，呵呵。


以下是乌鸦的自我介绍


中文名：李景雄

英文名：雷弗

昵称：乌鸦

所属团体：黑名单

位置：创始者

生日日期：八月七号 一九八六年。（挺好记的，所以别忘了礼物）

性别：为免让盲人们造成误会，还是要再多申明一次，我是男的。

岁数：懂得算就自己算吧，不懂的话。。。那还是算了吧。

出生地：吉隆坡某某医院。

恋爱状态：_________________ （留空，天知道自我介绍后会让我明天就恋爱了？）

婚姻状态：等待上一行的成功。

身高：170－173cm 吧。。。？

体重：重得自己都举不起来。

身材：中等。

样貌：帅得掉渣。（请把武器与食物收起来，其实见仁见智而已，乌鸦我只是在抛啊那个抛砖引玉啊，呵呵。）

肤色：郁闷，貌似乌鸦真的白不起来。

发色：黑。

语言：中文。

语文程度：小学六年。

国籍：皮肉在马来西亚制造，血统来自炎黄大陆。

种族：华人。

工作：魔鬼与天使的培养者，请叫乌鸦－－神！

收入：请叫我最穷的神。。。

工作地方：Sri Hartamas，非常远。

自我评价

懒，无可救药
老，心很老
一时情绪化
一时却潇洒
冷寞里藏着些许温意
暴躁但学着忍耐
有时只凭直觉行事
有时却很理智
很聪明
却时常干傻事
很羞涩
但心里的骄傲绝不让人践踏

总的来说，
很矛盾的一个家伙。


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--------------------------------- dont understand chinese read english, but dont laugh at my english ---------------------------------


always wanted to write a self intro.

very very long time ago, used to have this habit or i should say hobby among the classmates.

writing a self intro for each others on the classmates' little notebook, heh.


so below is my self intro


full name: Lee Jing Xiong

english name: Leif (not leaf kay? and dont pronounce as leaf.. it sounds layf)

nick: Crow

community: BlackList

position: founder

birth date: 7th August 1986. (quite easy to remember, so dont forget my gift)

gender: in case those blind people mistaken, got to clarify again, i am a male.

age: if u know how to count, please count, if u dont know... then forget it.

birth place: KL xxx hospital.

relationship status: _________________ (blank, god knows may be after this i get my girl tomorrow?)

marital status: waiting for the line above to success.

height: 170-173cm... i guess?

weight: heavy until i cant even lift myself up.

size: medium

face: crazily handsome. (please keep all ur weapons and food, actually it depends lah, just wanted to test u all only lah, heh.)

skin: damn, seems i really cant get fairer.

hair: black.

language: chinese.

language level: primary grade six.

nation: my body made in Malaysia, my blood came from China the mainland.

race: chinese.

job: the nurturer of devils and angels, please call me -- GOD!

income: please call me the poorest god...

working place: Sri Hartamas, so far.

self comment

lazy, no cure
old, my heart is old
sometimes emotional
sometimes cool
cold but there's a little warmth inside
hot headed but learning to be patient
sometimes i follow my intuition
but sometimes im being logical
very intelligent
but always done something stupid
very shy
but strong ego deep inside the heart

basically,
a very self-contradictory person.

CHANGED ` 变

早晴

有些人或许变了，

也或许是乌鸦自己停滞不前。

从前好多，

是否都不复存在？

或者，

天地不曾迁，

惟者视已变？

唉。


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--------------------------------- dont understand chinese read english, but dont laugh at my english ---------------------------------


clear day.

some people may had changed,

or may be i just didnt move on.

so much in the past,

are they all gone?

or,

the world has never change,

but the mind of one who sees it is changing?

sigh.