GETTING FURTHER ` 越来越远

夜晴

这阵子觉得和莉越来越遥远，不像一开始时能有说有笑了。

或者是之前我常闹情绪，所以导致她今时今日冷淡的态度吧？

亦或者是因为她觉得乌鸦不适合了，没兴趣了啦，所以给我的暗示？

其实乌鸦一开始就没抱太大的希望，她是个非常独立而且优秀的女生，
相反，我只是个懒惰的臭小子。

那天她突然说想去澳洲学习，乌鸦的心就冰冷冰冷的。
她说她迷惘了，而且很累，想去澳洲一年。
我只能装傻，乌鸦不可能阻止她，相反应该支持才是，就算很矛盾。

不过后来她决定不去了，当然不会是为了乌鸦。
只是她决定了留下来拼搏，不想给父母负担。我的喜悦也只保持了很短的时间，
很快就被她随之而来的冷淡粉碎了。呵！

也许，该是时候悄悄地放手吧。不可能总是常打扰人家的。

这两晚不知怎么总是想到茵，到现在乌鸦还是不懂得怎么面对她，即使她说没事了。

她最近还好么？我没勇气问呢。


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clear night.

these days i feel that i and viv are getting further, not like the begin we have more talks and laughters.

may be several days before i was quite emotional, thats why it causes how cold she treats me?

or probably she thinks that im not suitable to her so she's giving me sign that she has no interest on me anymore?

in fact, i didnt put too much hope on this, she is so great and independent.
unfortunately, im just opposite, am a lazy bastard.

she told me she's planning to go to Aus for study some days ago, i was like... i felt complicated.
she said she's lost and tired, she wants to go to Aus for a year long.
i was pretending, i cant stop her i know, i should support her even though im confused.

but at the end, she decided not to go anymore, not for me, of course.
she decided to stay and fight for her future, she doesnt want to give any extra burden for her parents.
lolz, i didnt keep myself happy for long because i dont feel good when she treats me coldly.

may be, i think i should have leave silently. shouldnt be disturbing her all the time, isnt it.

not sure why am i thinking of medly these two nights, till now yet i dont know how should i face her,
even though she told me she is okay already.

how is she recently? i dont dare to ask.